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[Nov. 3rd, 2009|12:08 pm] |
it's that time of year again. it's been one year plus since i've been out of my parents place and living in vancouver. the one year anniversary of this relationship thing i'm in. over half a year since i worked a job.
it was an exciting time last year.. the back to school feeling of new beginnings. leonard cohen said in an interview that he was considering using the performing name of "leonard september". to me the OCB halloween party is starting to feel like a new years party.. like halloween is now my new years- my chinese new years on my own calendar. I find myself looking at where my life has gone in the last year, like measuring the distance matter has expanded since the big bang. distant friends seem even more distant. there are people in the neighbourhood who i called friends at one point.. the building next door.. down the road... I find myself in the social/artistic hub of the city and yet I feel more disconnected/isolated/uninspired/unmotivated as ever. If i got together with these old friends i don't even know what i'd talk about.
lately my sense of identity and purpose seems to revolve around being personal chef for my girlfriend and, for a couple days a week, her kids. i know where to get groceries for cheap now, and although it always feels like i'm either cooking curry, stir fry, soup, pasta or something in between those four- she never gets bored and feels like i never cook the same thing twice. this small responsibility i have created for myself is all i need to be fundamentally happy. It makes me feel wanted, useful and i don't have to put much thought into it.. i cook up pretty tasty food just running on autopilot. I don't get quite the same feeling if i'm only cooking for myself. She has been spending more time out of town since being invited to join and tour with local band Blackberry Wood.
I am proud to see her career as a percussionist advance to new heights but at the same time it has bothered me.. she feels i may be comparing myself to her.. perhaps a little jealous that she is making progress in this area while my musical efforts are going nowhere- or going to australia to be a little more precise.. Natasha is going back home soon and Curtis with her. The project seeming to be less about collaborating on music and more of the relationship between the two of them. I feel Natasha is a self sufficient music machine- she can sing, play, write, record, and the stuff she puts together on her own feels complete without any help from other collaborators.. I feel Curtis has vision and a great aesthetic.. but to me the TEKNO feels like too much work and a bit of a headache. I loved getting together with them and creating noise, ambience, and landscapes of sound but i feel the final product we had been collectively dreaming of is too far out of reach.. perhaps they will eventually have something together the two of them over the pond in Melbourne. I have been resorting to craigslist postings to find other possible people to play with.. to start a project that is less head in the clouds techno wizardry and more feet on the floor lets just play something. I don't really identify myself as an artist or a musician i just feel it's something i have to do from time to time.
With my girlfriend touring and my music friends leaving for the down under- I am left in this city of Vancouver on my own and I can't shake the feeling that this place is devoid of any potential possibility. If I go somewhere else, will things be different? Tesla says, "If that's what you believe, then it will be so". Natasha has put the idea out there that i could get an Aussie working visa and she would try to hook me up with a spot to live with friends of hers in Melbourne. Tesla says if that's what I want to do, I have her blessing but she won't expect me to come back to Vancouver. Vern says not to make decisions based on a feeling of investment.. and not to feel too attached to any one woman.. to go through life sharing your time with as many as possible to get the clearest idea of what it is you're really looking for in a relationship. But even in spite of the complications of the relationship (kids and what not) I really can't imagine myself wanting to be with anyone else. I can rationalize that this city may not really be as stagnant as I make it out to be- i claim i'm not excited with my life anymore, so i blame this town, this job, my friends but the truth is it's myself - and that maybe even if i change locations I'll still have all the same problems somewhere else that i have over here.. and just be in the same situation minus the one i love so much. Yet i feel like it's that time of year again... and it's time for another big bang to shake things up. It's more likely that i need to shake things up in a different way... but it's so much easier to move oneself geographically as opposed to spiritually. |
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| strange happenings |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|07:32 pm] |
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| | peace division - club therapy (stanton warriors refix) | ] |
today in chinatown there was a guy walking around with a cat on his head.
there is a sound that you can hear in our kitchen.. it sounds like it is coming from behind the fridge.. it sounds like a female voice saying "hello?". as if somehow someone's intercom system is hooked up to our fridge. It seems to be happening more and more frequently.. my house mates hear it too, so I know I'm not going crazy
and someone wrote my cell phone number on our front door? |
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| MOVING TODAY |
[Jun. 1st, 2009|12:13 pm] |
TO STRATHCONA!
LIVING IN AN ART STUDIO!
PRETTY EXCITED! |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 27th, 2009|09:23 am] |
broke up
back after about a week apart
In short, we're back together despite the fact that we've decided to give up the basement suite we've been renting on E11th. We're not going to bother looking for a place to live for the time being.. instead we are just going to island hop for two weeks... then the plan is to head south of the border to check out the free folk life festival in seattle. folk music isn't as awesome as techno, but free things are always good.
music websites i need to recommend:
http://www.getthecurse.com <-- techno/house can be iffy sometimes.. but this site is always good. probably because it's all in french! the french definitely know their stuff.
http://www.getdarker.com <-- dubstep! Mary Anne Hobbs' BBC show is pretty wicked.
http://www.beatsinspace.net <-- hipster disco.. i love how laid back and easy going Tim Sweeney is as a DJ |
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| foods, previously unaware of, introduced to my life by current love interest |
[Feb. 23rd, 2009|12:04 pm] |
AMARANTH - tastes like oatmeal but has a texture similar to RO
TAHINI - like peanut butter but with sesame seeds. commonly used as an ingredient in hummus- also great on toast or pancakes with a bit of honey
QUINOA
KAMUT & SPELT - grain. less glutenous than wheat
CAROB - tastes a lot like chocolate to me, but this is naturally sweet without any added sugar
CILANTRO
ok i sorta knew about this one but now i have a new appreciation for it.
WATERCRESS
GUY CHOI -
GOJI BERRIES
NUTRITIONAL YEAST |
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| photo hosting |
[Feb. 14th, 2009|02:03 pm] |
what would you recommend for free photo hosting?
flickr? photobucket? imageshack?
i've got some stuff collecting on my hard drive that needs to be shared with the world at some point |
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| another post with lists about music |
[Dec. 13th, 2008|03:53 pm] |
my favourite songs by THE FALL with monosyllabic titles:
WINGS
SMILE
FRENZ
favourite songs by THE FALL with two syllables in the title
RIDDLER
GARDEN
HIP PRIEST |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 11th, 2008|10:20 am] |
the only new records i got in 2008
not a best of.. because that would give you the impression that i heard enough new records to make a qualified decision about what was "best"
Vampire Weekend:
to me i felt like they were sort of a tropicalized 2k8 version of the strokes.. with the main difference being that all of my friends liked the strokes, and none of my friends like vampire weekend. i left my vampire weekend cd at home when i moved out and my little sister listens to it a lot i think.
Destroyer: Trouble in Dreams
somehow it feels like this instead of maturing with each successive release, Danny Bejar's songs are starting to sound younger.
Hercules and Love Affair:
one of the best bands in the world right now. the transexual fronted NIN of acidhouse/neu-disco pop. i want to find out what records they stole all their musical ideas from, and buy them all.
Gang Gang Dance: St. Dymphna
I can't believe they got somebody rapping on this! Especially when the first thing that comes out of the rappers mouth is mentioning BAPE and ICECREAM clothing brands. It sounds good but the lyrical content totally breaks the mood of the record.
Abe Vigoda: Skeleton
what if vampire weekend were poor mexican sk8rs from cali rather than rich white boys from NY? is that the only difference? no i think there is something more... they are tuned into the same tropical vibe that local boys no gold are into... but i am positive that these folks are doing their own thing.. have yet to hear anything very similar. top marks for originality. bonus points for reverb.
No Age: Nouns
Most over rated pop punk album of the year
Deerhoof: Offend Maggie
I thought they would be running out of juice at this point in their career! happy to say this isn't the case! Deerhoof is forever. this record is an improvement over their last one if you ask me (but i think Runners Four is their epic masterpiece).
Jaguar Love: Take Me To The Sea
Johnny Whitney finally makes a record full of pop-rock ballads! I knew this was going to happen eventually. I think anyone familliar with his past career sort of has to ask themselves if this record is a bit of a joke, playing with the idea of punk kids growing up, selling out, going mainstream. My only complaints are that it is not exactly consistent all the way through.. and I think his lyric writing abilities were a little bit stronger when he was younger. whatever. it still succeeds in giving me the chills at certain moments, and delivering melodic hooks that don't leave your head
i think that's it for 2k8
in 2k9 i am going to abandon guitar based rock music entirely for hard schranz, acid house and dubstep.
speaking of which... TAAL MALA @ Lamplighter this sunday.
i am still pretty new to the whole dubstep thing.. but apparently this guy is supposed to be a big deal |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 10th, 2008|12:40 pm] |
come january, my australian roommate huey is bidding farewell to continue her explorations of this wonderful country of canada that we live in.
know anybody that's seeking a room for the new year?
600 a month gets you one out of three bedrooms in this spacious kingsway/victoria drive apartment. groceries are walking distance, trout lake/nanaimo skytrain not too far away... public transit basically at your doorstep. a great part of town to live in if you like eating pho/indian/chinese/spicy food.. (we're a block away from what was previously PHO BICH NGA)
if you have any friends that you think i could handle sharing a roof with, go ahead and pass this on |
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| back to the fashion advice |
[Nov. 19th, 2008|12:35 am] |
having your hair partially bleached never looks good ever
if you really want bleached blonde hair, do the whole thing
please
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| P FUNK-isms: this is my gospel |
[Nov. 17th, 2008|02:14 am] |
shit, god damn, get off your ass and jam
don't frown... even the sun goes down
i have tasted the maggots in the mind of the universe
i was not offended
for i knew I had to rise above it all
or drown in my own shit
free your mind... and your ass will follow
people.. what'cha doin? standing on the verge of getting it on? |
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| from crowley |
[Nov. 13th, 2008|02:49 am] |
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...the impulse to create takes no account of reason, custom, or foresight. it is divinely unscrupulous, sublimely careless of result. "thou hast no right but to do thy will. do that, and no other shall say nay. for pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is every way perfect." |
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| rules for photographers |
[Nov. 6th, 2008|01:34 pm] |
- never take your camera somewhere where there is already going to be cameras
- use digital SLRs if you want to, just don't talk to me about them
- if you find a spot where you like taking pictures.. return at a different time of day with a second roll of film
- photojournalists can tell you stories without using words
- pictures of girls never get old
- go where you are not allowed, there is probably something worth shooting there |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 1st, 2008|04:05 am] |
seeing all the different people in the world you come quick to realize that some of us are fitted more proficiently with certain abilities than others. from the level of deafness, of blindness all the way to restrictive allergies
this is why i surround my days with peanut curries, loud music, staring through lens
i feel genuinely sorry for people at dance nights that can't don't or won't dance
the ones who can't dance but will try, i give them top marks for effort
but even if you can hear the music, and have the will to interact
it seems obvious that some people are stuck with bodies that are unable to feel the music as their ears hear it
these are the ones doomed to a state of physical deafness eternally
you should offer as much pity to them as the ones bound to them by personal relationship
oh the joy of being able go somewhere on your own and not be stuck with anyone tagging along, locking you in their arms
i would never be able to offer any serious commitment to a girl if i wasn't convinced she was the girl i wanted to dance with most in the room
because no matter how amazing they might be in other areas of the human spectrum
if you are not one with the rhythm you are useless in my eyes
besides it's way too loud to talk to anyone in there |
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| scary stuff |
[Oct. 31st, 2008|12:00 pm] |
last night i had a nightmare that i went to a party in ladner
i calmed down when i woke up "it's ok dan, you're living in vancouver now" |
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| Dear Kanye |
[Oct. 20th, 2008|01:20 am] |
go easy on the autotune vocals please
seriously... your new record is going to end up being the hip hop equivalent of neil young's trans
thanks
- Dan |
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| important fashion advice |
[Oct. 18th, 2008|02:01 pm] |
important tips:
rolling stones "lick" shirts should only be worn by girls.
guys if you are reading this, put your rolling stones tshirt in the very back of your closet or give it to your rolling stones loving gf on her birthday/xmas/valentines day/keith richard's birthday.
leather jackets are ok if you are riding a motorcycle...
stripes are for fags
fashion branding absurdity:
why do clothing brands make cotton tshirts and print the word "DENIM" on it?
why don't you go and start embroidering the word "corduroy" on flannel while you're at it?
another important question about fashion:
why is sportswear so popular?
do fat/out of shape people who wear sportswear think they are fooling anyone?
when people wear adidas track suits.. why do they always wear them with puma shoes?
adi dassler must be spinning in his grave.
what is the best brand to choose if i want to be honest to the world about the disregard i have for my personal fitness and physical well being? |
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